Shut up, and stop smiling at me like you never hurt me. it was your words that shattered me into a million pieces.

Cole turned out to be douche too. Great. I'm getting really depressed. 9 out of 10 days i just want to crawl into a ball and cry. Theres this kid at my school who wont leave me and my friend alone no matter what we do, and he doesnt just say nasty things to us...he grabbs us too. and hes really strong so theres nothing we can do. i hate it. and my friend has a boyfriend whos willing to fight for her but of course there's no one there for me. there never is. sometimes i just hate myself so much. theres nothing good about me. all the guys i like never like me back. i wish i could just end it all.

& my "knight in shining armor" really turned out to be just a loser in tin foil.

Great. So "Will" broke up with "Taylor." I bet you're thinking " CAMRY! this should be a good thing for you, babe!" but no...its not. Because the reason Will broke up with her is cuz he likes um...."Sydney" too much. AND HE HAS NO CHANCE WITH HER. NONE. ZERO. EL ZIPPO. Ugh. If I still liked him I would be s c r e w e d ! ha ha. good thing i have moved on, huh? SO! There is this new boy in the picture. His pen name will be..... Cole! So Ive known Cole for awhile...never really like, like liked him...but i recently got to know him and hes really sweet. and guess what? he and his girlfriend broke up! and so i told him i kinda liked him, but that i wasn't really sure. and he told me that was exactly the way he felt. i told him that i would play it by ear and that i don't want to take things too fast...

but i love this. i love having someone to be there for me, even though we aren't dating. i love hearing my phone ring and knowing its him. i don't necessarily want to date him just yet, but i really like him and i want to stay this way-for now.

That's it! Update soon!

Boii Problems.:.:.

aha, the male species. what jerks, right? well, not all of them i guess. lets just get to the point, eh? OK, so. i have a majjjorrr crush on this guy. hes not exactly popular but hes not a loser either. so, a while back i dated his best friend, then i broke up with him because i knew i had just gone out with the friend to get to the guy i liked. lets call him Will. the friend being Nick. Okay, so i dated Nick to get to Will....didn't work out well. Nick started talking about being together forever, blah blah blah. yeah, NO! ewe...nick was u g l y. but hey, you do crazy things for love. anyway! so the other weekend we had some school trip to go to and my friend and i sat in the middle of the bus, to not be disturbed, and Will and some friend of his move to sit next me and my friend. Wills friend, lets call him Carl, and my friend...lets call her...Rachel. So i was sitting by Rachel and he was sitting by Carl. On the way to Peoria for some science competition. anyway, Carl started asking me for "Taylor's" number. So i told Carl that he had a girlfriend and i wasn't going to give him some girls number to cheat. but then he said that it wasn't for him it was for WILL. so basically in short form, my heart literally sank to the floor. i was so upset. i eventually Will knew something was wrong but i just shook it off. So we were at some mall after the school function and Carl asked for the number again and told me why. Apparently Will had a ha-auge crush on Taylor and wanted to call her. Well that news about made me cry. But I'm tough, so i didn't. Then Rachel gave Carl the number and we went in different directions. So, on the bus ride home i was all depressed-like. Will texted me and was like "Whats wrong?" and so i said "nothing...boys are stupid." and we just started rambling. then he goes "Carl lied. i wanted Taylor's number to tell her no. she asked me out on Friday and i dont like her." so he had to convince me a little more but i believed him....So over the weekend i was all happy. Then come Monday morning and i got news that Will said yes to Taylor and i was furious and sad at the same time. So i confronted Will and he said that he didn't like her at the time, blah blah. but you don't change that drastically in one day...thoughts?

My blog, yo.

Hey, I'm Camry. This is my blog.
Okay. So I'm going to start this whole crazy thing off with where I live. I'm a Midwestern girl. I live in Illinois, just about a mile away from living in Iowa. I live right on the Mississippi River. I know what you are thinking. Oh, My, Gawd. Why is this HICK writing a blog? Well, I'm not a hick. I may be surrounded by them but it doesn't mean I am one (not that I have a problem with them either). Anyhoo. Now to the whole reasoning thing. I'm making a blog for an outlet. I'm not expecting a bunch of followers or even ONE, but I need something to do in this craptown. I will probably be talking about anything from makeup, to fashion, to gossip and my problems, to current news (ha, yeah right!) and boys. So stay tuned and read down, or up. Whatever direction it is!
Peeaaceee!